Oh friends! Do you ever feel just overwhelmed by it all? Sorry if this piggy backs onto Mizfit’s latest guest post on Jen and Annabel’s blogs (which I cannot see because I am at work and the bloomin’ firewall won’t let me!) but I was all set to ramble on about my fabulous weekend: bands I saw, food I ate, mud I was knee deep in etc etc but as I have caught up on all your lovely blogs and read around subjects and whatnot this week, I find my head spinning with a sort of INFORMATION OVERLOAD and many, many questions pinging around in my head! I’m a bit tired and cranky this week and too stressed about moving house and Rich going away for 3 weeks and work and a whole host of other bobbins and then to top that I have SUCKED at following the plan this week and have now not seen the inside of the gym for a blinkin’ week. I did run Friday, Saturday & Sunday though but have not lifted a single weight and as such now have fully formed Bingo Wings. I’m not kidding. I can feel my muscles deteriorating as I type! So then this panicky feeling sets in where I think ‘Holy crapola (Gawd, I LOVE saying that – thanks Jen!) I need to get in the gym and stay there until I am a size zero, and I’ll go and train every day and do 3 sets of cardio and full core and full weights and then I worry that I have overtrained but I was a dancer once upon a time and there is NO SUCH CONCEPT in the world of classical ballet! I figure that if I set myself the target of working out every day then I might go 5 times out of 7.So then I think about what I am eating, am I drinking enough water? Am I eating too much meat? Too much fish? Will I go insane with mercury poisoning? Do I need vitamin supplements? Do I need to get involved with those Green Monster thingies? Should I panic about carcenogenic chemicals? Do I get 5 portions of fresh fruit and veg a day? Do I drink too much alcohol? Do I eat too many carbs? Do I eat too much processed stuff? Is organic REALLY organic since there aren’t any laws controlling what we can call organic or not? And then the gym: how do I fit it all in? I want to do my weights as I really do love them! I am woman hear me rrrroooooooaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrr! Running has become a focus and a passion for me as I get stronger and quicker and able to run for longer and not to keel over and die, but then I feel I am losing my flexibility so I’d like to do a Pilates class and a Yoga class each week but this means I am spending from 5pm until 8pm in the gym and therefore not seeing my long suffering husband, not catching up with friends, not seeing the babies that have been born while I’ve been in the bloody gym, not seeing my amazing parents or sibs, or having the time to eat anything or relax or get my head round issues I am counselling people about.
And all of this combines to make me go ‘SOD IT’ and become lax in my routine and approach. I want to curl up in a ball and wake up when I am thin and healthy…hahaha how pathetic!
So this week had essentially been a write off. Still can’t get that balance! I am reminding myself of a petulant child stamping my feet and acting defiant. ER HELLO! Snap out of it!!!
So today I have been BANG ON PLAN and am just off to the gym now for a rigourous and sweaty workout.